I’m sorry but I have to say this. I get pissed like beyond pissed when I see things like this (the below pic) on Faceboo
I always feel like I need to justify my life and the choices I’ve had to make. Like I need to justify why he has chosen to not be around. Always feeling like it’s my fault that she is going through life without a father. When,for 5 years,he knew exactly where I lived and would just walk in and out like it was no big deal but now?! Doesn’t show. Doesn’t message. Nothing. He doesn’t care!!! I’m the one raising her. I’ve always been the one raising her. He was a boy and by his actions, I can see that he is still a boy. I know there is alot of flack out there on dads who don’t pitch but that pic just upsets me so much and I guess it’s because I feel like it’s directed at me. Like, I wanna shout at the person who created because I am here, she is here! Where is he, huh?
I’m not saying he is a bad person but I sure as hell don’t consider him a father. She called me daddy last night. Huh? What am I suppose to say to her? I’m trying my damn hardest to be all for her. All for her because you couldn’t even bare to be a little. A inkling of existence is just too much for you. I will not lie to my child but I will do everything in my power to protect her. We will be ok. We are ok.
*You bailing was the best thing that ever happened*
**disclaimer: all pics are courtesy of 9gag, pinterest, facebook,tumblr or just plain ol’ google 👍