The word “Coloured” and why I hate it

Recently my family and I have started this ritual, in the spirit of being healthy; we try to walk a few times a wekk. A 30 minute walk / jog. It’s fun. I sweat. I pain. It’s for a good cause though (you’d understand if you ever saw in the light). But this post is not about the eternal train of wanting – to – lose – weight, this is about the ever popularised and overused term; “Coloured”

To say I identify as a Coloured would only be because that is what I have been told and from the area I have been raised; “Coloured” is the first and most natural bracket I have been put into.

I have been called

  • too white for Mitchells Plain
  • too sturvy because I am unfamilar with the wordings of my people

People have even gone as far as to say, “Are you sure?” when I tell them I have lived my entire life in the thriving drug and gang stricken community of “The Plain”

Do I get offended when I hear the term “Coloured”? NO

I do however, hate it and all the negative conotations associated with that ACI status

I am not white

I am not black

I am Coloured

  • Low level
  • Crass
  • Unintelligent

This not only what people say but how people look at me, I see the judgement in your eyes and that version of Coloured infuriates me

As soon as I loudly identify as Coloured; without a second thought I get asked to perfom stranger CCA’s (Coloured Circus Acts)

  • speak like one of them
  • say something Coloured

And then, what words do you use?

The favourite and one they always look forward to is PK

*please note that at the time of these CCA’s, I worked for a predominantly white owned company (I am not racist, just stating the facts) where it was of unheard of to still be calling your parents “Mommy” and “Daddy”, to still be living at home at 25 and to be living somewhere other than Claremont / Rondebosch

The term “Coloured” irks me even though we have Youngsta, Paxtion Fielies, Wayde van Niekerk and Craig Lucas (he is Coloured, right?) ; the sort of low level Coloureds or non TV Coloureds are still seen as kak

I am a proud Coloured girl from the Plain

I am not proud of the filthy language we use, the way we are so easily mocked and how we willingly make clowns of ourselves

I am a proud Coloured girl with a mom hailing from Lavender Hill and a dad from Manenberg

I am not proud of the way we are exploited and how the term “Coloured” is so loosely thrown around like the tik injected into our children’s veins

I am a proud Coloured girl always being told “you’re too white for Mitchells Plain but too coloured for Constantia” , as if that was some sort of compliment

I am not proud because I a writing this

Admitting that I am offended by the term “Coloured”, the term i so closely relate to; is not a good thing

Leaves me as if I am not apart of anything

As f I don’t belong

It is not a proud moment but as I bowed my head in shame when, what I assume was a drug laden gent, shouted across the field “Fiekie jou naai”; I realised that that version of Colouredness, although colourful #punright is not the version of Coloured I have ever wanted to be associated with

Perhaps it is because I am my harshest critic and worst judge

<when the one rotten apple lies in the basket too long: do we also turn brown on the inside?>

GhostWriter | A Poem For Sam From Me

Sam wanted to be ravaged
She’d been alone for too long
She needed someone to pull her hair and bite her neck
She craved a manly, rugged touch
She wanted nothing more than to be taken from the back
To the back
Pulled into a dark abyss where fantasy was as she imagined
She needed to be punished
For what? She did not know
She needed to be choked as she came
Sam needed to be ravaged
Passionately
She was closed off
She was closed down
Sam needed to be looked at
Lustfully
Wanted
Sam needed to be explored
She had a desire for the unwanted
The unhinged
To be lustfully taken
Forcefully taken
A kiss so rare and dangerous that even she would run scared
Sam needed to become unhinged
She needed to be free
Thoughtless
Embodied with yours
Sam wanted your mouth to engulf her most intimate parts
She wanted you to become one with her
She needed you to stay there
Stay here
Sam craved your attention
She sought your lonely heart
Your wandering hands
Sam needed you to be her
She needed you to be her
Sam wanted you to be him
She wanted you to be him
She loathed what you did to her
She loved how you did it to her
She no longer wanted anyone else
She craved your kisses
She longed for your eyes
Sam was sold
On you
For you
Sam was sold
Into this fanatasy
Still alone
Still lonely
Sam was sold
You bought a lonely heart
You bought a sad heart
You bought Sam
Sam needed to be ravaged
Sam wanted to be ravaged
But not hurt

NSFW : You’ve been warned

Now I know some of you will just come onto this post, via phone, tablet or pc; and you do it because you are just plain bis. Now, I’ve already warned you, the “subject” clearly states Not Safe For Work, and there’s a warning. It’s up to you whether you scroll further, but you probably will coz, you know, you’re bis. These are pictures that I am posting, albeit against my better judgement, but I need some damn accountability!!!! Yes, I will be accountable to myself but hey, what’s a few extra 100 people?
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It’s gotten bad folks. Looks like I’m carrying another baby in here and looks like I belong with the tyre ring chain of obese americans *no, not the gang. I need to make a change. I have to make a change. Like fuckin yesterday already. Shits getting outta hand and I ain’t getting any younger😯😯😯😐😐😐

I know I shouldn’t : Nick Jonas

I shouldn’t because, ladies and gents, he is only 22 years old! A whole THREE years younger than me, but OH MY HOT DIGGITY DAMN!!!!!

Have you seen this hotness that he has become? HAVE YOU? I highly fuckin doubt it!!!!!!!!!

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OH MY GOLLY GOODNESS – He must spend HOURS in the gym 🙂 I’m pretty sure if he can do it, so can we.

Ladies, I’ve posted the original link HERE.

Yes, it’s wrong. He is so deliriously young but OMG, why the hell not?! It is Friday afterall!!!!!!!

ONE LAST ONE……………………….PROMISE

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Now, go get clicking 🙂

OBsession: Kirk Norcross

Good Morning Beautiful People,

I am typing this blog post from a PC!!!!! EEEKKKK #firstime

This post is dedicated to a deliciously delectable Mr Kirk Norcross – he is from the UK and BEYOND gorgeous. Now, I am not one for white men (no racism intended) – I prefer me some colouredness but DDAAMMNN!!!!!

He is one hot piece of ass, and has accomplished a few things in his life. He can sing, he is goodlooking as hell and he looks a bit like Daniel Craig and Tom Hardy, and I do like me some Tom Hardy, Now, I don’t care much for body and what not – have a boep, I really DO NOT care but damn THAT face!!!!!! I prefer his rugged look over his fresh faced boy-ness btw 🙂

I would love to find a man, handsome but also down to Earth, like Mr Tom Hiddleston. Many of the coloured guys today have NO goals, NO aspirations and are downright hooligans, and then there are some coloured guys that do have goals and aspirations but they also don’t want to be tied down to a single mom, because they would in turn, like to have kids of their own.

#itsbeenagessinceivebeenkissed #sadtruth

So, in case you haven’t clicked on the links above, I’ve sourced some pictures for you (and me). Enjoy them, and don’t drool too much!

Daniel Craig

Daniel Craig

Tom Hardy

Tom Hardy

And then, my all time fav – Kirk Norcross

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NOW ISN’T THIS TASTY