Notice Me

I still want him. All of him. His arms around me. I miss him. Deeply. Insanely. Am I crazy? I think so. I’m not wanting the sex. I’m not wanting the sex or the passion. I’m wanting him. The him I fell inlove with. The him I constantly crave. Like some drug addicted prisoner.  Perhaps it’s not love,it’s probably just crazy infatuation. Crazy infatuation that I can’t have him. Crazy infatuation that I hope he is the one. For me. For always. It is a pulling emotion. A pulling heart. A hurting. I know it’s crazy and I come across as crazy,obsessive and completely pyscho but who am I to stop what my heart wants,when all my heart wants is you. It’s not like you don’t know. It’s not like I haven’t told you. It’s just that I sit here. Waiting. Waiting for you to say something. Dammit! Anything really. I want him. I need him. Perhaps the picture I’ve painted is not a reality. Perhaps the picture I’ve painted is obscured. Perhaps the picture I painted is not you,it is not me. It is an alternate universe where love happens. An alternate universe when you see me and I see you. Some crazy Hollywood shit. I want him. I want you. Think what you may but my heart is pained. It is in pain. I am in pain. I AM IN PAIN!!!!!! I want you. I need you. Where are you? Notice me.

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I don’t care how stupid I sound or naive I sound. I just don’t care. It had to be said. I had to say it. Notice Me.

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Seriously? #howhard

So,once again, WordPress fucked with my post, so here I am,at work RE TYPING what I initially posted. 😠
Basically,my post was about the fact that I have been single for 2 years now and still NO LUCK……I have been single,like all over. I am not afraid or apprehensive about 1 night stands and I am not a judger of that kind. Do you girl, just be safe and use protection. I know I am not the most beautiful or most approachable lady in the world but I mean,like really now? It’s been 2 years and I know my time will come but heerie, when? I just wanna know,why so long?! I don’t mind being alone and if I am meant to be alone forever, then that’s fine but it would be nice to like know that. I do think that it comes from inside, like I really don’t think that I am 100% ready for a full on relationship but I know that when the time is right, I would want it to be a forever kind of love.
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Random Post #notrelated

I find that this world is unsafe and with the conversation at the office taking a turn towards a debate about whether or whether not to let our kids sleep over. I went with the NOT. Due to the fact that she is a girl and still so young. I still think I would not be comfortable even if she is 6 or 12 years old. It’s not that I don’t trust people. I don’t trust the world. It has become unsafe,to the point where you cannot walk ALONE to the corner. Every move you make is monitored. You,as a citizen,need to be super vigilant. Fuck! That bra you helped with kos now the other day could end up being the dude that slits your throat one night. Seriously. No one is safe. Ever. People take advantage. These druggies or whoever it is that fuckin breaking in,shooting, hurting people don’t care and I will sticktp my guns that our government, our country is going to shit! Down the fuckin drain man! There isnt much to be desired when you look at our government and the smet that is our president. How,are we,as a nation suppose to feel safe? How,are we,as parents suppose to protect our children, when we have become so easily targetted by these smet kinders? I swear this country is just going to get and nee,it’s not one of those “it always gets worse before it gets better”. It’s just plain kak,down the toilet piss kak. Fuckin government!!!! 😠

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The End

Wow! What a day!!!!! Zineah’s creche had a theme day – Come dressed as people who inspire us

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They then had Zineah’s “Creche Birthday Party”

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We then had a jol at home

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Zineah got a bike,a banner and a stryofoam minion

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#BLESSED #BEYOND #GOODNIGHT #CHEERSTOBEING3YEARSOLD

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Birthday Girl

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It’s a damn good Friday because I am on leave but mostly because it’s someone’s birthday :mrgreen::)☺:D;)

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Zineah Elizabeth Japhta………..my daughter,for those of you who don’t know.
She is THREE YEARS OLD and oh so clever and gorgeous and loved. The theme at her creche today is to go as people who inspire us- we chose Doc McStuffins

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We also decided that she doesn’t have many favourites but,up until recently,her favourite movie to watch was Despicable Me,so of course that’s the theme we chose. This is the set up at creche. 34 bananas is no joke!!!!!!

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I am so blessed to be her mother. I wouldn’t choose to change my life for anything in this world,not even money. She has made me a better person. She has made me want to do better and be better. She is my blessing. She is my love. She is my life.

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Happy Birthday My Monkey 😍😘👸💞👍👌👑🎂🎁🎊🎉🎈Mommy loves you 💗👄

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