This Thing

Ok,so the office where I work are ‘infested’ with spiders. And not your usual run of the mill Daddy Long Legs – it’s those fuckers that jump!

It just happened to ‘stroll’ across my desk yesterday and it disgusts me……like I have no issue with it but it jumps and it’s EVERYWHERE! Like EVERYWHERE.

That place is,how do I put this , DIS – GUSTING 🙁

Don’t believe me…….NOT FOR SENSITIVE READERS

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Doctor Visit

Good Morning People Meople 🙂

My face this morning is something else hey.

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Let me break it down for u – I am tired. My body is taking revenge.

My legs/knees are in constant pain and it’s not because I’m fat,it’s because I am lazy and haven’t had a decent workout in 2 months.
This headache? Had it since Sunday.
My mouth is so eina! Like the whole left side. It’s my fault – I refuse to go to the dentist. I could go but no. No time. Not now. Later.

So,it’s official – my body is for sure taking revenge.

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Will I make it through WITHOUT seeing a doctor/specialist? Yes but I should see one anyway……you know,just to be safe.

Tears R Stupid

I don’t want to cry but I should
Because tears are stupid
Tears are just a sign of weakness and there isn’t any time in my life for that
I have to be strong
It does kill me
It does hurt
But I have to dust myself off and carry on
No time for tears
No time for weakness

I always want to cry but it’s even more prominent when I look at my daughter – such a pure innocent beauty

I only want to protect her
Even from my own weaknesses

There is no shame in crying. Emotions. Tears
Just sometimes,there’s never any time

I want to cry
Maybe later

I know I shouldn’t : Nick Jonas

I shouldn’t because, ladies and gents, he is only 22 years old! A whole THREE years younger than me, but OH MY HOT DIGGITY DAMN!!!!!

Have you seen this hotness that he has become? HAVE YOU? I highly fuckin doubt it!!!!!!!!!

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OH MY GOLLY GOODNESS – He must spend HOURS in the gym 🙂 I’m pretty sure if he can do it, so can we.

Ladies, I’ve posted the original link HERE.

Yes, it’s wrong. He is so deliriously young but OMG, why the hell not?! It is Friday afterall!!!!!!!

ONE LAST ONE……………………….PROMISE

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Now, go get clicking 🙂

Home

I have to come home and pretend……that everything is ok and it’s not. Constantly feels like I’m on edge and the walls are crumbling; more like crashing.
I find solace….a peace in my Lord and Saviour but I have yet to obtain a full understanding and grasp of that.
I try. Everyday. I fail.
I am expected to remain calm and never get angry. Never retaliate. But when do I get to be the lesser person? When do I get to have a break? A chance to let loose. An opportunity to cry and cry until my body heaves from the pain.
There are many worse off than me. There always will be.
Perhaps I should just stop wanting. Stop looking.
I won’t give up. Maybe I should just slow down but I don’t want to go on pretending that I’m ok. Because I’m not.

I am not ok. But I’ll make it. I have to. I will

Pinterest

Confession: I am a Pinterest whore!

I could spend my entire DAY on Pinterest and only feel bad because I did not watch something or listen to something, but work? meh!

I love Pinterest and I LOVE Printables – organization! OH.MY.GOSHNESS!

I love searching for DIY’s, which I never actually DIY but whatever – no one knows

I love searching for dresses – even though I hardly wear them

AND I LLOOVVEE searching for ideas – parties, office DIY (that word again).

Pinterest is  probably the best thing to ever have happened in my life……well, besides my daughter that is.

OOH, I love searching for food…..recipes and such 🙂

I am OBsessed and I don’t want to be cured 🙂 Don’t deny me my daily dose

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Keep Pinning,

*Pinterest Whore*

The Band: RJ and On The Move

Hello peoples,

I was on Facebook, as always 🙂 and came across these TWO videos for a band that I know….well I know the singer but whateve! I listened to it both and I was taken aback – IT IS GOOD!!!!!!! I even considered asking them to sing for, just in general. Just stand around and sing, just coz we can 🙂 Sometimes you need a bit of randomness in your life.

RJ and On The Move, perhaps you could do a old school jazz number? Al Green?

You can really feel the love they have for music, hell, even their hashtag is #ForTheLoveOfMusic 🙂

You STILL don’t know what I’m talking about? Come out from under your rock Patrick!, and

Check Out The TWO Links Below

RJ and On The Move | Amy Winehouse

RJ and On The Move | Bob Marley

Such “jivvy” numbers – had me rocking out in my office chair 🙂

You wanna get hold of them? Here’s a link to the Facebook Page 🙂

Keep rocking bitches!

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OBsession: Kirk Norcross

Good Morning Beautiful People,

I am typing this blog post from a PC!!!!! EEEKKKK #firstime

This post is dedicated to a deliciously delectable Mr Kirk Norcross – he is from the UK and BEYOND gorgeous. Now, I am not one for white men (no racism intended) – I prefer me some colouredness but DDAAMMNN!!!!!

He is one hot piece of ass, and has accomplished a few things in his life. He can sing, he is goodlooking as hell and he looks a bit like Daniel Craig and Tom Hardy, and I do like me some Tom Hardy, Now, I don’t care much for body and what not – have a boep, I really DO NOT care but damn THAT face!!!!!! I prefer his rugged look over his fresh faced boy-ness btw 🙂

I would love to find a man, handsome but also down to Earth, like Mr Tom Hiddleston. Many of the coloured guys today have NO goals, NO aspirations and are downright hooligans, and then there are some coloured guys that do have goals and aspirations but they also don’t want to be tied down to a single mom, because they would in turn, like to have kids of their own.

#itsbeenagessinceivebeenkissed #sadtruth

So, in case you haven’t clicked on the links above, I’ve sourced some pictures for you (and me). Enjoy them, and don’t drool too much!

Daniel Craig

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Tom Hardy

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And then, my all time fav – Kirk Norcross

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NOW ISN’T THIS TASTY

Late Night Thoughts

I’m hardly awake at this time in the evening but it seems,that tonight I have a vast ocean of annoying thoughts swimming around. I apologise for ALL my spelling mistakes but I am laying down in bed and I am a tad bit tired.

Let’s go.

I feel stuck. I wanna do something bigger than this. I wanna be somebody. I want to own my own business. I want to be my own boss. I want to be a success. I just want to do better than what I’m doing right now. More motivated. More out there. No excuses.

I feel stuck. I am so super duper overweight. 1.49cm tall and 73kgs heavy. I am so fat and I just can’t stop eating. I vow to wake up and work out but ai,as if. Forever oversleeping.

I feel stuck. I am such a perfectionist and it’s killing me. Everything must always be perfect but here I sit like an obese unhappy clown but die lewe gaan aan.

I feel stuck. I am so unhappy. Like right now,in this moment but I am unable to cry.

I feel stuck. I want love,man love. I’m scared though,that I might just jump onto the first dick I see. I want to be noticed. I want to be wanted. I want that ridiculous movie kinda kiss,where it’s all passionate and lustfull.

I feel stuck. I wanna fuckin vent! Like scream my fuckin lungs out,get drunk and just cry. Just fuckin cry and clean,and just fuckin figure out what the hell is going on because I am so lost.

I feel stuck. I need to and want to be a better mother to my daughter but I don’t know how because she is so much like me – stubborn as a rock!

I feel stuck…….and alone. Lonely. Sad. Alone. All the time. Sad. All the time. Afraid. Doubtful.

I feel stuck. I’m suppose to do my learners this month and I don’t want to and can’t fail. I think I will.

I feel stuck.

I am Athena.
I am 26 years old.
I have a daughter.
I am a fulltime working and partime studying single mother.

I am not happy. I am not ok. I am stuck

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